I Don't Know...

As if you know the biggest secret in the world. You don't know what to do or even what to feel. As though almost no one seems to know or care but you. And you don't know if it's the best this way. You just don't know. But you do feel it. You did.

Hello?

Hey ya'll,

When was my last time blogging? Hey, don't judge me! I really kinda lost my passion to blog. But now that I have a little feeling to write, you get to know a bit about my latest life! I can't guarantee when will be my next time posting so I hope this post is long enough to satisfy your curiosity.

Last Fall (End of July 2011 to be exact), I finally left my home and family in a country that I've been living for the past 20 years, Malaysia, heading for a new pursue of knowledge and experience in a Western country, a powerful nation yet so foreign and fresh to me, the United States of America. However, things are not completely different from back home. They're just...different.

Cut the story short (maybe a longer story next time),I've gone through the phases that'll an International student would experience in a new country, especially "Honeymoon period" and "culture shock"!

Honeymoon period: "Oh, Americans are so nice and friendly here.", "Oh, I'm so gonna make friends with the Americans.", "Oh, my campus is so beautiful.", "Oh, the sky so more beautiful here", "Oh, the girls here are so hot and pretty", "Oh, I've come to right place. I must be in heaven.", "Oh, it'll be so awesome here!".....

Culture shock:"Omg, why wouldn't they laugh when it's so damn funny?", "Omg, Americans are so individualistic!", "Omg, Americans don't walk on grass?", "Omg, Americans don't date?", "Omg, life's so lack of varieties here!", "Omg, my English is different from theirs.", "Omg, do American hairdressers know how to do a haircut?"....

Trust me, I never regret coming to Indiana University, Bloomington. This is my dream school and so, it's a dream-comes-true. Americans aren't that bad too. They're just different, culturally. Just that the feeling of loneliness does strike me once in a while; my close friends are all in other universities and things here might not be what they seem. Anyway, things have gotten better as time passes by, and probably I've found my new life. Now, let's talk about something exciting! My classes are pretty exciting! 

So, I'm now still under University Division, a "pre-school" for all IU students who have yet to be admitted into their own schools. I'm more excited about getting into School of Informatics and Computing, my main reason of being here. Up to now (April 2012),I should be on the track to a Bachelor of Science in Informatics, with a cognate and minor in Telecommunication, plus a Certificate in Business. Pretty cool huh? Informatics is a very interesting inter-disciplinary major . But don't ask me what's my job after graduating because I really don't know how to answer. It's supposed to be a pretty flexible major that can fit me into almost anything, especially in Telecommuncation now. Wanna know what I study?

First semester (Fall 2011), these are the courses I took: Intro. to Informatics; Finite Mathematics; Intro. to Sociology; Beginner's Guitar Class; Ethics, Religion and Public Life. 15 credit hours, a variety of courses to give me an idea of what's Informatics and fulfill the requirements of my major, plus an activity course that's supposed fun and boost my GPA (turned out to be a pretty overwhelming class, not because of grade but a demanding instructor). In overall, a pretty good semester to kickoff my studies here. With a GPA of 3.6, I'm just too glad.

As for my Spring 2012 semester, I've progressed to some higher-level courses and feel more like an Informatics major. Courses I'm taking: Elementary Composition (Writing for Multilinguals); Math. Foundation of Informatics; Social Informatics; Media Life (Intro. to Media); Chi Gong. This semester is a bit more hectic with all the writing assignments due almost every week; however, I get to improve my English again. Math. Foundation of Informatics (a.k.a Discrete Math) turned out just fine, much better than I thought. Media Life, my first Telecom class, quite fun but its contents are pretty abstract. Not to miss, another random activity course, Chi Gong. I can heal myself and people now? 

Currently, I'm in the final stage of the semester, working on some papers and preparing for final exams. Look, I just spent about 2 hours for this post! I just can't resist writing so much and it'll take away my time. That's why I seldom blog. Anyway, hope you enjoyed reading. Till the next time I write again...(No promise though...). Peace out...

Should I? Should I?

Hmm..should I get back to blogging?should I? Should I?..hmm..I'm too... lazy?

For you...

Although it's not easy and requires determination, I'm trying to hold my feelings and stop listening to my instinct, giving you all the time that you need. Never be too bothered by little things that I could do every day which can mislead you to wrong decision. I made up my mind and initiated my commitment but to what extent, it might be affected by the impermanence in my personality. Perhaps that is one thing you wish to know too. But for now, my feeling and admiration have not been shifting away, still true and only for you.

...just a few words...

I don't quite remember how to blog. All I feel like typing now is how I wish I have more time...but it's really okay. Because...I understand.